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jonathan byers ([personal profile] tiltshifts) wrote2022-09-24 11:31 pm

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NO! /covers eyes

[personal profile] agirlboss 2022-11-07 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[No one wants to actually believe that maybe the person they're in a relationship with might not be the one but that horrifying thought has been lingering on Nancy's mind for a good while now.  The long distance has definitely put a strain on their relationship but what aches the most is the fact that they've dealt with worse. So why is their relationship suddenly crumbling? 

Could they have both rushed into something purely based on trauma and nothing more? She had once thought she had a connection with Jonathan, found someone who actually understood her but as of lately it feels like the two are strangers.

It's a shitty feeling but much to Nancy's surprise it doesn't ache as much as she thought it would. 

She takes a seat on the couch, her hands placed in her lap as she waits for Jonathan to speak. She's prepared for anything or at least she thinks she is but once Jonathan starts speaking she can feel her stomach drop a little to suddenly. Her brow furrows in concern.]


You haven't been honest with me? Jonathan?
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YIKES

[personal profile] agirlboss 2022-11-10 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Nancy waits for him to admit that he's done something horrible like he's been unfaithful or that he doesn't care about her anymore. The scenario has played in her head on repeat for months now. What she hadn't been prepared for was Jonathan finally confessing that's he's been lying to her all this time.  Her stomach drops like a brick, there is this sudden feeling of botj betrayal and shock. Nancy blinks her eyes a few times but not a tear is shed. 

She doesn't exactly know if she feels numb or nothing at all? Her pretty face even holds a hard blank expression. It feels like time has slowed down, she can hear Jonathan's words clearly but he sounds as though he's a million miles away. He's given up on what was supposed to be their future, their big plans and it seems like he's pushing her right out of his life like she never mattered at all. 

Nancy can feel her groomed nails digging into her skin, her eyes fixated along Jonathan sharply. ]


You lied to me....

[Her voice is soft as she speaks and Nancy wonders if she's saying it more to herself than Jonathan. Jonathan lied to her. Maybe it was foolish of her to hold him up to a higher standard? To actually believe that he was different and he of all people wouldn't deny her the truth.

She slowly pushes herself to stand, tiny fists falling by her sides. She remains calm, her voice still gentle with each word.]


And you're wanting to know if we can still be friends?
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It's bad!

[personal profile] agirlboss 2022-11-12 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jonathan should have known that Nancy would not have faulted him if he had just been honest with her in the first place. She knows how much his family means to him and it would be extremely selfish of her to ask that he ever place her first or push his family aside to accommodate her wishes. The Byers had been through so many horrible, unforgettable things and she doesn't blame Jonathan for having that fear to leave them behind without his protection. Yes, his choice would have hurt but Nancy would have respected it. 

Instead he chose to string her along and build these great plans with her that he knew would never come to be. Who does that to someone you're supposed to care about? Maybe this was her form of karma for how she had treated Steve and what Steve had done to him. She was now experiencing that level of pain but yet she still felt numb.

The more Jonathan seems to speak the worse the conversation turns. It's one thing to lie to her for as long as he chose but now it's speaking as though she never actually mattered. That he's ready for her to just walk right out of his life if he doesn't push her first. That's what really hurts and sparks an anger deep within the pit of Nancy's stomach. ]


Stop. 

[She holds up a hand to silence him before this conversation goes any further, her voice a bit tight with her words.]

I would have expected this from literally anyone else, Jonathan. Anyone else!

[She has to compose herself from yelling because she feels it's not worth it and she still feels oddly calm about all of this. That alone could be concerning but their relationship had always been a ticking time bomb, right?]

We should have ended things months ago.

[could they have saved themselves even then?]
Edited 2022-11-12 16:24 (UTC)
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Jonathan......

[personal profile] agirlboss 2022-11-16 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
[What changed? 

Nancy wants to demand Jones give her an answer. When did she no longer mattered? When did he stop being in love with her? Had he even loved her at all or was it all just another lie? Deep down she knows that Jonathan doesn't have an answer and neither does she. She hadn't for a very long time and maybe that's when she accepted their relationship was over even though she didn't fully acknowledge it. 

He had really given up on their relationship, he wasn't even making an attempt to fight for her and that spoke volumes to Nancy. Jonathan didn't even have to speak a word, his actions had spoke enough for him. Nancy isn't going to go out of her way and throw out options to save their relationship. She isn't going to grip Jonathan's hand, whisper they would get through this and she certainly wasn't going to beg him to stay with her. 

She doesn't offer him comfort or reassurance. Instead she just gazes down at him with a cold, blank stare. ]


And you don't even care. 
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I AM SO SORRY 😭

[personal profile] agirlboss 2022-11-19 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Jonathan would be right, Nancy doesn't know what she wants from him. Maybe she does want him to get angry, to show any kind of emotion other than nothing at all. Had he become so hollow, had she? Once he voice raises a little, Nancy finds her heart leaping just a bit, was he finally starting to show just a little bit of frustration? Did it really even matter now? He had already made his choice to not fight for their relationship. 

For her. 

His words sting her, which takes her by surprise. Had their relationship been that horrible, that broken? Her own hands ball up into tight fists by her sides. ]


I don't need you.

[She speaks the words softly, calm and confident. They aren't spoken to hurt Jonathan but they are words that need to be said if nor for him but for Nancy herself. ]

I expected so much of you when you were here, even when you were gone and that wasn't fair. Yes, I was scared for you when you weren't here and yet again Hawkins was being attacked because I would never want anything to happen to you but-

[Jonathan was exactly where he needed to be and so was she.]

I'm starting to learn that I'm perfectly fine on my own. That I'm capable of protecting myself. 
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[personal profile] agirlboss 2022-11-20 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I didn't want it to be true. 

[She never wanted to lose Jonathan, not like this. Nancy never wanted him to feel like he wasn't appreciated or needed when he was with her of all people. At one time he has been the one person that understood her despite how stubborn she could be at times, the person that protected her and was there for her during a dark time. 

She isn't angry that he wants to be close to his family. That had been a trait she admired so much about him, that he would protect those he loved without question. She doesn't blame him either, she understands his need but it's the fact that he lied to her. It was selfish, cowardly. ]


I'm going to go.

[She doesn't feel like she belongs here anymore.]